Tuesday, 11 September 2012

Alone with my slippers!

Well, another day has gone by... My mind is running 100miles an hour and I'm trying to relax and breathe while also trying to keep my feet warm.

I am looking for answers but I'm not sure I will find them within... At least not today. What I know for sure is that all the drama and everything I am going through is meant to be, it is meant to bring me where I am supposed to be and to who I am supposed to be. I understand all this but it doesn't help me and my emotions. It doesn't help my heart or my spirit. I am only human. The only thing I can do is to take it day by day, better, minute by minute. Second by second.

Sunday, 9 September 2012

Bad day, bad week...

I am having a bad week,... not only a bad week but I am slowly realizing a lot of things are wrong in my life... I mean, I am working so hard to get to a place financial where I can be comfortable, not only for me but for my daughter. I am barely getting any sleep ever... on top of that, my  "love" life is a mess right now. It has been crazy messy. It's hard to make grown up decisions sometimes when feelings are involved. I think I am hard to understand as a person because my reality is often too hard and selfish? I am not sure, but I am realizing that I have a different way to see things and when in my process, I end up hurting the people I love. All this stress is wearing me down but I am trying to look forward in life. I don't want to give in to depression. I have to be strong for my daughter.

I am just exhausted, both physically and emotionally. I want to get to a place mentally where I can feel rested and serene.